For Lauran…

I would not be honest w myself or ANYONE else if I made my life out to be “crystal stair-ish”…my ish is NOT perfect by any means, and I don’t portray a person w a perfect life, but let me enlighten you…

DISCLAIMER: if you get your panties in a bunch about things relative to my life and how I feel about my blessings, that’s something YOU have to deal with. I’m not knocking the life of another; I’m writing about my own. Thank You (that’s for the softies who get “in their feelings”) LOL

My family dynamic is phenomenal AND RARE nowadays i.e. two parent household, all siblings by the same two parents, all children born after the marriage, parents married UNTIL death…all of those factors are dopetastic…but let me tell you; my family is NOT perfect. I don’t need to go into detail, but know this: EVERY FAMILY has some level of dysfunction; those relationships need improvement. Keep reading…

My lovely company (PRbyELLE77) will need to be tweaked, and often, if I am to remain in business. That’s not a perfect situation either, certainly will always need improvement…

My relationship w God–the most IMPORTANT of relationships that anyone could ever have, in my opinion–gets a BIG ole “needs improvement”…and in red letters though…

I need to workout PERIOD. I’m not fat, my last physical exam w my Doctor was awesome, but I am NOT in the mood for a gym, yet I complain about problem areas when the onus is on me…needs improvement…

Now…I just gave you FOUR areas in my life that need improvement (I only NAMED four…that’s not all; that’s just all I care to share). With that said, HOW ON EARTH do I have time to get off into someone else’s business? My focus must remain strong on those matters of importance to me, which are family ties, my PR firm, my relationship w God, the fact that I need to workout, etc. Someone said to me Monday–if we are what we eat, we are what we think. POWERFUL!!! I am not a bad person because I am not necessarily doing things on a “straight and narrow path”; some people will have to come to grips w that very fact alone, but I ALSO have to realize that my path, and the choices regarding said path, are MINE and mine alone. With my PR Firm, I cannot get discouraged if things aren’t smooth sailing INSTANTLY. I want to quit THE HELL out of my 9-5 EVERY SINGLE SOLITARY DAY…every dawg gone day lol BUT…instead of complaining about being at the job, I wake up and say to myself “I get to quit my job”–this is a fact! I WILL get the opportunity to quit, when God sees fit for me to leave! Changing my outlook on that has changed the way I handle the job! My relationship w God and the fine tuning that MUST come w that starts also w me. He has never ONCE left me; I’ve strayed away from Him. His arms remain open wide for me, so mine are open to receive the embrace that He will give to my spirit, granting me PEACE in the situations around me. Good Lord I need you…

The gym? Eeeeeeeeh…I’m not perfect LMAO!! But no, I will figure out the best plan for me, however in my planning, I can’t become angry that I don’t “look” a certain way in a certain amount of time. I have to come to grips w a slower metabolism, which means I will have to work that much harder. But it’s all for ME. A size six isn’t bad; but a TONED size six is what I’m looking for.

Bottom line: there is NOTHING more urgent than focus! NOTHING. If you’re focused, you won’t be shaken…I’m working on that daily…

Elle